This morning there has been a malfunction with my Iphone. (the second self induced one this week!) While updating the calendar I remembered something I wanted to be reminded of and went over to my list to add it. I accidentally clicked on something new and must have done something wrong. Suddenly all of the reminders I have ever put in there came back into the 'to do' section. I figured that when I had checked that box on the left that they were forever gone. Not so, and now I had retrieved them. Now I had created a monster 'to do' list and a new 'to do'... delete all the old finished tasks from the past 367 days. As I read over them memories of cutting out snowflakes for a birthday party or getting ready for an anniversary vacation came flooding back. One of my children is now away at school and I saw all the violin concerts and orthodontist appointments I had reminded myself to do on his behalf. A tug on my heart strings.
Then another thought of how
here was actual proof of all the things a mother does on a day to day basis for her loved ones. I should read it to the next sassy teen who tells me I don't do anything around here. Oh yeah? I don't do anything? Take a look at the long list on my iphone! I bet you can't even sit still long enough to read them all! That doesn't even cover half of all the stuff I do for you kids! Oh the stench of ingratitude.
Then another thought. This is the stuff life is made up of. Without it we would just be sitting there staring at walls all day. It would be miserable right? And some day when I have less kids to shuttle around, and feed, and throw parties for, I will miss this to do list. Sometimes the things we think are bogging us down are what define us. So we should really be filling it with good stuff. Instead of resenting all the sign up sheets that go around we should be first in line to offer our time and talents. I was glad to see that some of the things on my list were 'making dinner for Tiffany', 'volunteering at the school', 'muffins for the homeless shelter', or 'bring strawberries to the RS meeting'. Plenty were mundane like 'buy stamps' or 'pay speeding ticket' but those things are part of what makes this family go right? And without me who would buy the milk? My wish is that I will be able to find reverence for those mundane activities as well, and that someday when my kids are in charge of their own to do lists that they will turn around and respectfully thank me for checking off that list when they were that person that needed that thing done for them.
PS lets blame that 'to do' list for my lack of blogging for the past month shall we?