I think it is safe to say that my children need me. It has taken us the last 4 hours to pack for our trip to Utah. Just for me and Big Boy! He had to wash shirts to bring (told him to do it yesterday), couldn't find his wallet (under a towel in the bathroom). I had to re-pack all his pants (he took them out looking for his wallet). While he was putting away (per-mom's-request) the violin that had been left out for a second damaging this month I asked "what will you do when you are away from home and don't have me telling you what to do all the time?" His response was that he guessed he'd have to suddenly grow up and move on. As if he could... What a sec, maybe he could but he doesn't because I am always here reminding him to do stuff. It's an interesting thought to ponder anyways.
This time when we go to Utah I am going to have to view the mountains with a different perspective. Our family just signed on the dotted line to stay in the military. This means we won't be moving back to Utah any time soon. I have always been okay with that. Although it would be nice to be closer to family, the longer we have been away, the more we like our independence. That may sound harsh, but we enjoy the diversity here, we like the schools, we don't have to be so involved in family dramas, and we vote however we want to. Our kids are strong in the church even though they are in the minority. Or is it because they are in the minority- who knows. Whatever the case I have come to believe that it's not where you live but how you live that matters the most.
I used to dislike it when Easterners would come to BYU for college in my home town of Provo and dislike everything about it. No one hates that kind of critical talk more than the locals. Now I find myself seeing the little weird things that only I seem to notice. I am sure my family dislikes it when I point these Utahisms out to them. I will try and hold my tongue this time. Utah is a great place. It's THE place I hear. I love many many things about it. But I guess I have changed so much since I lived there that I don't really fit in there anymore. Not blonde, do recycle, make green salad and hate Jello, not outraged at Obama.
I always love books or movies that show change (hope and change even more-ha!) in a character. Now I've turned (somewhat) into one of those East coast people who I disliked once upon a time. Talk about weird! Now all I want is love and acceptance from my family members who just don't get me now. Or at least less ribbing from them. I wonder how they will take the news of us signing on for more military time. Probably not well. I will have to borrow Big Boy's line about finally growing up and moving on. Nope, That's not insulting at all : )